February 2010
Ha-rumph.
Everything keeps getting better. I am very content with the way things are going in all aspects of my life for once. School, friends, boys, family, etc etc. I’m going to take the next three days though, to just stay at home and clean and study and smoke. I like the thought of escaping everything/everyone sometimes. It’s neccessary to get away every once in a while. Mmmm. I like this.
:)
Hmmm :) Just all smiles, no big deal.
Story of my life:
Kid: Did you not have a date today?
Me: No, my date and I broke up.
Hahaha so funny and so true. The date I actually want is taken anyway :[
V-day.
Single right before Valentine’s Day, again. I always have a boyfriend and for some reason, break up around the same time. It’s a curse. It’s hilarious. I love it. Anyway, last night was pretty epic. Partied with some re-aquainted friends from high school. Got rather wasted. I would have rather been in Michigan, watching I See Stars play a home-town show… But.. I would do...
Slowly..
Falling apart.. For once, I don’t mean me. Today was a decent day. Tonight was decent as well. Funny how things can change so rapidly. They go from one extreme to another. I feel like I am becoming further from you… When i thought you were the answer.. And I was thinking about someone else.. Oh, what am I rambling about.. Well I know what I’m rambling about, but I almost feel...
Re-cap.
Today was quite eventful. I had a really good day, and was in a realllllly good mood. I blame Nick for the start of that :) and the day just got better and better. Hung out all day with my brothers and Jessa, then my mom came home and we were all just in really good moods. Played some pong and now, M&Ms and Jessa’s bed. Gotta wake up at 7am to go to Paul Mitchell for Jessa’s text....
"Humans are Heartless."
I sit here, after another amazing night and tear myself apart. I pick at the flaws, the negative traits and every other little insecurity.. I also got in a meaningless argument with Brittny. I love her to pieces. I hate arguing with her. She means the world to me. I put up with her shit because I love her, and still can’t ever stay upset with her, but she can’t put up with my shit? :/ It’s unfair....
Someday came suddenly..
I feel kind of dumb for not having seen all this before. Yet again, I am also slightly peeved that he hadn’t spoken up earlier. This definitely changes things. It changes the way I see the entire situation. It makes me feel horrible for how I’ve been going about it; Doubting everything, including myself. I just want to make things right again. I want to erase all of the negative from...
Survey for restless:
A - Age: 20 B - Bed size: full.
C - Chore you hate: dishes. D - Don’t eat: cabbage. E - Essential start your day item: herb. F - Favourite board game: candy land. G - Gold or Silver: depends.. H - Height: 5’3” I - Instruments you play(ed): violin, snare. I play nothing now. J - Job title: I’m pro at everything. K - Kid(s): none. L - Living arrangements: with me mum. M - Mom’s name: Delia....
My Life.
PBR, Video Games, Herb, Tunes, Body Mod’ing, Camera/Video Camera, Tea, Road Trips, Random Parties, Inside Jokes, New Friends, Old Friends, Shows, Cosmetology School, Perfect Boy, New Books, New clothes, New Phone. New Life.
I can dig it. :)
xoxo, bianca.
